Here I Am Again.....

I highly doubt anyone aside from me is reading this, but hey, someday that might change.

So, I'm working on actually making one of my songs into a real song. With like instruments and stuff. How cool is that? I'm super stoked. I'm working with this friend of mine named Nick. I am thinking I will show him that song I wrote earlier this year, or was it late last year? I post so infrequently I couldn't even tell you. However, the problem with showing him that one is I don't know how much I actually like it, and a lot of it doesn't even rhyme. Songs don't sound very good without rhymes so........ NOT the point. Sorry, I'm sort of scatter brained all the time. My mind sort of runs at 100 thoughts per seconds it sometimes feels like. Anyways, I guess I'll copy and paste that song for you guys to look at, eh?

Kaila Darling, You're So Blind

lyrics by Breanna Belgarde

Music (hopefully) by Nick Witham

Here's a rhythm,

to match your heartbeat

A melody

for your voice to sing

I only want to speak

to the real you

to understand

your choice that brings

So much pain

and all that distrust

Please let me in

because

[bridge]

I have been there

when you stumbled

been witness when

your walls crumbled

[chorus]

You can't tell me

you're not scared

Don't try to act

As if you don't care

I can hear the truth

hiding behind your lies

See past the mask

through your disguise

You care too much

about what others see

what others believe

what they want you to be

You test my patience

Are a source of so much doubt

I can't begin to figure you out

I can only hold your hand,

mirror your smile

Hope that you will stay for awhile

you think you're broken

but the thing you don't know

is your faults and imperfections,

make you so much more

[chorus]

So reveal your true self

Peel off all your guises

stop hiding in the arms

of all your vices

I know you're in there

....somewhere

when you break free

Know the world is ready and waiting

My Posts Are So Few and Far Between

So, I haven't given up on my dream of singing, because it's really all I want to do, but I'm going to school for writing and theatre right now. I started January 17th.

School is going well, for the most part. I had some obstacles, ran into a few road blocks, but things have smoothed out and my classes don't seem to be too hard. I like all of my classes, except Intro to Public Speaking, but it's sort of a necessity and could prove useful for my choice of career. So, it's a necessary evil. Also inevitable since it's pretty much required for every degree.

Sometimes I ask myself why I went back to school. What can school offer me at this point? Yet, here I am. I'm learning quite a bit, but I'm not sure how useful it will be. I'll keep you guys updated.

I just celebrated my 20th birthday. It was a lot of fun. I watched a lot of anime. Nerdy? Definitely. :)

I'm looking into buying this Subaru, but it's going to have to be put off for another day. I found out I had to work. :(

So, on an entirely different topic, I kinda like two guys at the same time, and if that wasn't awkward enough, they are best friends. Kinda stinks. The one who appeared to be reciprocating my feelings however, also likes another girl. It's sort of a mess.Ce la vi, I guess.

Anyways, I can tell you guys thought that was really exciting. I'm done writing about stupid b.s. now. :)